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I reach over and touch her just one more time. Is she real or just my
imagination? Guess I've been talking to dead people too long that
reality is difficult to accept. My hand grips her closer to me as if I
could lose her any second. My mind is racing as I listen to her soft
breaths as she sleeps. So much has occurred in the past week and my
mind is just now relaxing enough to allow it to process.
She had to give our son to some family that could protect himand give
him a better life or to give him a terrible lie. A lie that I had to
deal with for so many years, thinking my father was William Mulder
only to realize that the Cancerman was my real biological father, a
man of evil doings, a murderer and a liar. I hope he has more of his
mother's genes than mine, he deserves a fair chance in this world,
which is more than I could have given him if he was able to stay by
But I would have died for him. I would have given him more love than
anyone could of thought possible, and Scully would've too.
I reach over and brush her hair from her face and look at her pale
features and I believe she has obtained a few wrinkles around her
eyes, possibly caused from crying too many times.
I wish I could have given her happiness and a life of children and a
safe and loving home but instead I have given her a life of running
for her life, a child that she had to give away to protect, like
Moses's Mother had to do for him thousands of years ago.Will she ever
get a chance to be close to him or have a relationship with him, even
if it under a disguise or a meeting directed by fate or in her
I look away and up towards the ceiling, almost ashamed of the life I
have given her and our son. Why didn't I die?
Why didn't I turn into an alien creature? I shake my head in shame and
tears feel my eyes. I will make a promise this day to myself, I will
find our son and we will be a family someday or at least he will know
his mother, even if it takes the rest of my life or my last
breath.This is a promise I will keep but for now I will embrace this
time I have beside you, it may not last for long.