Title: Would You Change it?
Spoilers: Everything Xfiles
Disclaimer: They belong to Chris Carter and Fox.
She awakened from a bad dream. A dream where soldiers
were chasing them and where it just would not stop.
The never ending running and hiding. She looked over
to see Mulder but he was missing. It was difficult to
tell if the sun was up or if it was still dark outside
because of the thick curtains that covered the windows.
She slid out of bed and pulled her robe around her and
walked over to the window. She could see him standing
outside in bare feet, blue jeans and his t-shirt. He
had taken to looking at the stars a lot in the past
few days. She wondered what was on his mind. They had
been through so much together but he had endured more
physically. He had refused any medical attention for
his many bruises and she worried about the mental stress
he had to endure while being captive in the military
prison had effected him.
She quickly dressed and pulled on her jacket. She needed
to go and retrieve him. She opened the door and walked
out and stood by his side. She remained quiet for a few
minutes and then she took his arm and gently nudged him
to come back into the warm room. He nodded and followed
her back inside,quietly he walked back to the bed and
sat down. He looked up at her and gave her a small grin.
"Guess that was not a smart thing to do especially with
the temperatures dropping to low thirties but I had a
She pulled off her jacket and placed on the hanger and
hung it in the rack. She then walked over and sat down
beside him. "Mulder,do you want to talk about it?"
He shook his head and avoided any eye contact. After a
few moments he spoke, his voice was low and serious.
"Let's play a game Scully."
The words took her by surprise and with some trepidation
she asked,"Game. What game Mulder?"
The name of the game is 'Would you change it?" and
the only rule is that you have to be honest.
She pondered where he was going with this for a few
moments then answered, "Yes Mulder I'll play." With
that answer she stood and pulled the old worn chair
that sat in the corner of the room in front of Mulder
and she sat down. "Ready to play Mulder.", she spoke out
loud to her partner but inside she was concerned at where
he was going with this game.
He nodded and sat back more on the bed, pulling his dirt
covered feet up and dusting them off with his hand and
then pulling them up underneath him. He thought for a
second and then asked his first question, "Would you
change our first meeting in the office?"
She smiled, "No spooky Mulder. I would not change that day."
He nodded but no smile, "Okay, but would you change the
the moment that you realized that there was a possiblity
that extraterestial life could exist?"
"I have always accepted the truth Mulder. It may have been
a difficult thing to accept but I would not have changed the
fact that it was real or the truth." She sat more upright
in the chair and wondered what he would ask next.
He seemed to be dealing more inwardly with his next question
and after a few minutes he asked, " Would you still ask me
to be the father of your child Scully knowing what you know
now?" he paused a few seconds then continued, "Would you
change it?" He looked up at her and now his hazel eyes were
filled with tears.
This question touched her heart. Did he not realized how
much she loved him? She stood and walked the the short
distance to the bed and took him into her arms. " Are you
asking me if I would change the way God meant for it to be?
Are you asking me if I would give up our miracle?
Are you asking if I would
change the most important decision of our lives?"
"But Scully didn't you have to give him up because of me?
I gave you a child only for him to be taken away like
everything else in our lives. I have failed you and our
son Scully. I stay up at night wondering if I could change
things what would I change and the only thing I would not
change is you or our son but that is so selfish. The two
most dearest people in my life are the ones suffering the
most for this quest that I started on so long ago. Scully,
it is just not fair for either of you.",the emotion in his
voice matched the pain etched on his face.
She pulled back so that he could see her face clearly,
"No Mulder I would not change that moment I asked you to
be the father of my child. I would not have changed the
moment I came into your bed and made love to you that
night. I would not change one moment of my life since
I met you, even the most difficult moments have made us
what we are today and that is not a bad thing Mulder. Yes,
I wish we could have William here with us but we have a
mission and that is to ensure that our son has a long life
here on this Earth Mulder. Someone has to make the sacrifice
and we were chosen Mulder, either by fate or by God, we were
chosen to make it right. We have work to do and the greatest
thing we can give our son is a long life."
He smiled at Scully and nodded, " You're right Scully.
William will be fine. We need to ensure that he will
always be fine." He took her into his arms and held on tight
and they remained that
way for a long time.
"Mulder?" she called his name softly.
"Yes Scully." he replied, rather worried that she
might be having second thoughts.
" I would change that time that you took me into the woods.
You know the mothmen."
"Sorry about that Scully."
" Oh and that time that you chased that vampire and drove
the stake through his heart. That too"
" But then you wouldn't have met the cute sheriff."
"Who by the way turned out to be a vampire too"
" Sorry Scully."
" And what about that time I you took me to that little
town where the citizens were cannibals. They almost
beheaded me Mulder. Definitely I would change that too."
"Okay Scully. I get the point." He reached up and turned
off the light." Good night Scully."
" Wait Mulder, I'm on a roll."
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